Ok, so I decided that I might as well update you guys on what's going on with the Carthage scholarship and all that. I really have been postponing writing this post because well, the decision that I took has made me kind of sad. =( Anyways, I decided that I wouldn't go compete for the full tuition scholarship at Carthage and I'm pretty bummed out about it. Why? Well, honestly because I really think that I could've gotten it if I went and gave my all in it. But, of course, life has something else planned for me and I decided not to go compete.

What happened was that I started thinking, "How am I going to pay for an apartment if I do get the scholarship?" The thing is that if I do get the scholarship, it's only going to cover tuition and it's not going to cover my housing or anything like that. So, I brainstormed and thought of ways that I could pay rent if I were to have gotten the scholarship and well... first of all, I wouldn't be able to stay at the dorms because I'm over 25 so, I would have to get an apartment outside of school. And, that totally sucks. It really, really does. I mean, I would have to pay for an apartment and I don't know how I would pay for it unless I got a student loan to cover the costs of an apartment. So, the question is... if I got the scholarship, would I have been able to get a student loan?

The answer to that question is pretty much the reason why I decided not to go to Carthage and compete for the full tuition scholarship. I don't really know if I would be able to get a student loan to cover the rent of an apartment because well, to be honest... I have really bad credit and that sucks. There's no way that I'd be able to get a loan with the credit that I have and then I wouldn't be able to go take advantage of the full tuition scholarship. So, why not let a student that would probably be able to take full advantage of the scholarship and would be able to go to Carthage get that scholarship instead? I know, I know... I'm really thoughtful.

Also, my entire family was telling me that I shouldn't go and that it would be really horrible to have to take out loans to pay for an apartment and that I don't have money and that I would be all alone in a state where I know no one. I mean, seriously, when I say my entire family, I'm talking about my entire family. My sisters and my parents, all of them! So, they were really freaking me out and they really did get the best of me.

Honestly, for the most part, I don't let people's opinions influence me on what I have to do. For the most part because I always end up doing what I think is best and what I want to do. But, this time... they really did affect my decision because they really did scare me as to how I was going to do everything.

So, right now... I don't know what the hell is going on anymore. All I know is that I will not be going to Carthage next semester and that totally sucks big time. A lot because I really, really wanted to go so badly. But, it's ok. I've made my decision and I guess I'm going to have to stick by it. There's nothing else to do.

So, I guess I don't know what is going to happen from here on. I guess I will just have to wait until Rani graduates from Carthage and I can work towards a bachelors of some sort until we decide what we're going to do from there. Hopefully we'll be able to be roommates soon because that would be awesome. I would really love it if it was in NY. Maybe Atlanta would be really nice, too. Who knows?

Whatever happens, we'll definitely keep you guys posted. I hope everyone is well. Take care of yourselves.

Until next time.

--Zul

Labels: Carthage

Ok, so I decided that I might as well update you guys on what's going on with the Carthage scholarship and all that. I really have been postponing writing this post because well, the decision that I took has made me kind of sad. =( Anyways, I decided that I wouldn't go compete for the full tuition scholarship at Carthage and I'm pretty bummed out about it. Why? Well, honestly because I really think that I could've gotten it if I went and gave my all in it. But, of course, life has something else planned for me and I decided not to go compete.

What happened was that I started thinking, "How am I going to pay for an apartment if I do get the scholarship?" The thing is that if I do get the scholarship, it's only going to cover tuition and it's not going to cover my housing or anything like that. So, I brainstormed and thought of ways that I could pay rent if I were to have gotten the scholarship and well... first of all, I wouldn't be able to stay at the dorms because I'm over 25 so, I would have to get an apartment outside of school. And, that totally sucks. It really, really does. I mean, I would have to pay for an apartment and I don't know how I would pay for it unless I got a student loan to cover the costs of an apartment. So, the question is... if I got the scholarship, would I have been able to get a student loan?

The answer to that question is pretty much the reason why I decided not to go to Carthage and compete for the full tuition scholarship. I don't really know if I would be able to get a student loan to cover the rent of an apartment because well, to be honest... I have really bad credit and that sucks. There's no way that I'd be able to get a loan with the credit that I have and then I wouldn't be able to go take advantage of the full tuition scholarship. So, why not let a student that would probably be able to take full advantage of the scholarship and would be able to go to Carthage get that scholarship instead? I know, I know... I'm really thoughtful.

Also, my entire family was telling me that I shouldn't go and that it would be really horrible to have to take out loans to pay for an apartment and that I don't have money and that I would be all alone in a state where I know no one. I mean, seriously, when I say my entire family, I'm talking about my entire family. My sisters and my parents, all of them! So, they were really freaking me out and they really did get the best of me.

Honestly, for the most part, I don't let people's opinions influence me on what I have to do. For the most part because I always end up doing what I think is best and what I want to do. But, this time... they really did affect my decision because they really did scare me as to how I was going to do everything.

So, right now... I don't know what the hell is going on anymore. All I know is that I will not be going to Carthage next semester and that totally sucks big time. A lot because I really, really wanted to go so badly. But, it's ok. I've made my decision and I guess I'm going to have to stick by it. There's nothing else to do.

So, I guess I don't know what is going to happen from here on. I guess I will just have to wait until Rani graduates from Carthage and I can work towards a bachelors of some sort until we decide what we're going to do from there. Hopefully we'll be able to be roommates soon because that would be awesome. I would really love it if it was in NY. Maybe Atlanta would be really nice, too. Who knows?

Whatever happens, we'll definitely keep you guys posted. I hope everyone is well. Take care of yourselves.

Until next time.

--Zul

Labels: Carthage